Love's Vision Powerfully Manifesting in Me, in My Life, in the World! Amen!

Listen, lest you forget who you are.
~ Rilke ~

I woke early this morning.  The sun was peering in through my bedroom window.  A break in the clouds.  A break in the clouds.  Yes, that is what I needed today, a break in the clouds.

I sat on the edge of my bed contemplating whether or not to lace up my shoes and go out for a morning run before our community house meeting.  I knew I needed to go.  To pound the pavement, to feel the rhythm of my stride and my breath.  To let my mind work it out through the cadence of one foot after the other.

The air was cool, washed clean after last night’s storm.  I breath in, I breath out.  I come home.  I am coming home to my essence, my true self, the face I had before I was born.  One step at a time, I am journeying deeper into my essential self…where God meets God and where I find the beauty of my own divine human nature.

This is the sweetest journey.  Coming home to myself.  Coming home to God in my own body, heart, mind, soul.  Coming home to God as community, as friendship, as intimate partnership.  Finding God, experiencing God, receiving God in and through all Life.

I am descending beyond what I have known.  Dropping into the vertical reality of ascension descension.  Ascending into greater union, descending into greater union.  This is the Divine Marriage — the Spirit in union with the Soul.  The Divine Masculine in union with the Divine Feminine.  This is the Sacred Union we long for. Our Souls in blessed communion with the Divine Beloved.  Every other search is a disguise.  We are all wanting to come home.  We are all coming home, one step at a time.

I am descending as I am ascending.  I am dropping below the realm of thought, idea, judgment, criticism…dropping into the heart…feeling and dropping further still into essence. Like a pearl on a string, dropping into still water…slowly descending.  Coming home.  Beyond my past, beyond my troubles, beyond the mind’s judgments…calming, quieting, and dropping down into the essence of being.

I am here now.

What would you like to know?

I am here now.  The room is illumined.  I am illumined.  In the essence of being I am illumined.  In Christ, as Christ.  When we are in the essence of being, we become the face, the hands, the heart, the eyes, the voice of Christ.  This is our true salvation.  It is here that we regain wholeness, surrender to our innate oneness.  The Kingdom of God is within you.  The Kingdom of Heaven is within you. 

I’ve looked everywhere but here.  Now I see.  Now I know.  The greatest of these is love.
Love is the essence of my being.  Agape, Christ Consciousness, this is what we are all made of.  When I descend below the tower of thought, the clouds of fear and unworth…I connect with my essence.  This is the moment of salvation. The reconnection in essence.  The recognition of essence.

I drop down below my fatigued story of fear and unworth.  I drop down below fear’s nauseating churn in my solar plexus.  I drop below the neurologically entrenched anxiety. 

I drop into the place of being.  The place of I AM.  The place of enoughness.  I breathe.  I know this place…this place is home.  This place is God.  The God within me.  The Presence that courts me.

How can I embrace the essence of being?

Rilke says, “Non one lives his life.  No one lives her life.  Disguised since childhood, haphazardly assembled from voices and fears and little pleasures, we come of age as masks.  Our true face never speaks.”

I feel the truth of the words of Rilke.  I realize how much of my true being I have had masked.  How my true face has never spoken.  I have never met the essence of my being.  Glimpses, moments.  She reveals.  99% hidden, concealed, unknown.

I am a mystery unfolding.  I yearn to unmask and reveal the essence of my being.  To fully embrace this as the Source of my existence, the creative force in my life.  I wish to prove Rilke’s words wrong. 

My true face, my essential nature reveals itself through my words, my actions.  It infuses all Life.  It is the One Source of all living.

Rilke proceeds to say, “somewhere there must be storehouses where all these lives are laid away like suits of armor or old carriages or clothes hanging limply on the walls.”

Suites of armor, old carriages, outdated clothing.  A life unlived.  I am willing to lay my armor down, step out of the old carriage of comfort and security, drop the outdated roles, inauthentic persona to embrace my essence, to live from essence.

What does that mean?  I am not who I thought I was.  I am not who you’ve seen.  I am so much more than I’ve known.  I am a dynamic range of possibilities and configurations of all that is Divine and all that is Human…changing every moment and yet unchanged and constant and still and rooted in my core.  I am a vertical reality intersecting with the horizontal experience.  I am in the world, not of it.

I lay down false pride and arrogance.
I lay down entitlement.
I lay down superiority.
I lay down inferiority.
I lay down separation, isolation.
I lay down criticism, self-abuse.
I lay down over-doing.
I lay down vigilance.
I lay it all down.

I receive deep peace.
I receive self-forgiveness.
I receive God’s grace.
I receive unconditional love.
I receive nourishment.
I receive rest, relaxation and play.
I receive Good, beauty and blessing.
I receive worth, acknowledgement, truth.
I receive gentleness, kindness, openness.
I receive forgiveness, reconciliation and peace.
I receive love, tenderness and compassion.
I receive health, embodiment, and integrity.
I receive money, sustenance, vitality.
I receive inspiration, guidance and flow.

I receive all of these things that I AM.

I receive and embrace the essence of being.  I (God as I) create my life from being still and knowing the I AM.  All things flow to me naturally and easily.  I relax and allow things to come to me.

I am open and receptive to the Good and to God in my life.

What do you need to lie down, so that you are available to receive?
The lesser for the greater…

What will it be?

I am embracing the essential, being the essential.
I am an essential being.
Love’s vision is being powerfully manifested through me, as me and for me.

Sweat gathers on my forehead.  My lungs are clear.  My body awake.  My mind is calm.  My heart is open.  Experiencing the beauty of the moment.  Feeling the gifts of endurance.  My legs provide the spiraling motion.  One day at a time, embracing the essential.  One day…one step…one breath…at a time, I am coming home.

Amen.