Oh wayward life of love and passion
Come home to me now
Rise in my heart once again
Ignite your Divine Spark
Visit me, Holy of Holies
And tell me of your visions
Who am I now,
As your expression of Love
And loveliness
Whisper sweet nothings
Whisper sweet somethings
In my heart’s ear
Show me the way
Guide me into love
Guide me into light
Guide me, as I send out my
Love to my Beloved
I feel him
His kiss
His breath
His touch
I see him
His eyes
His mouth
His chest
I want him
His essence
His soul
His temple
I love him
His presence
His joy
His play
I welcome him
His light
His dark
His forever becoming
I know him
His body
His heart
His soul
I have known him
All of my life
I have known him
Lovers don’t just meet somewhere
They have been inside each other
All along
I have been looking all of my life
But today Beloved, I have found you
Yes, today…within my own heart
I have found you.
Bring me home
Ever so gently sing me home
Love is my home
Forever united in the tender embrace
Of Love’s impassioned fire.
The trinity of Love’s masterpiece
Here now.
Archive for July, 2008
Love Guide Me
Wednesday, July 30th, 2008Rising in Love ~ Sufi Practice
Wednesday, July 30th, 2008
One of the important things to do when releasing a habit or addiction is to create a new, nurturing and nourishing ritual to replace it with (instead of just making a “lateral move” to another addiction).
I would like to invite all of you to practice this Sufi heart awakening ritual once a day for the next week. Let’s see how we join together when we make this our ritual instead of the practices of numbing we have engaged until now.
Ten minutes is all you will probably need to do this practice, to fan the flame. When you open your heart, you open your life!
I am posting this practice on the blog for those of you joining us on this journey through this medium! I invite you to join us in this practice this week.
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Rumi wrote, “Love is not just the thirsty seeking the water, but the water seeking the thirsty.” That which you seek is seeking you as well. What you have been seeking all along is love. All the while, love in its wonder has been seeking you. Rise now into the ideal. Rise into the possible. Rise in consciousness. Rise in realization of love and come to love yourself and your new life with the Beloved.
A Sufi Practice to Awaken the Heart
Most of us have learned how to build a fortress around our hearts. This technique, which is the proper use of a zikr, allows us to relax and permits the fortress walls to crumble. When done properly, this zikr leads one into holy union with the Divine Lover or the Beloved. It is a remarkable experience.
You will need a way to keep count of 33 exhalations. You may use a rosary or a mala if you have one. Or use your fingers. What you are going to do is take 33 very deep breaths and visualize the breath penetrating your heart center. With each exhalation, you will make the deep resonating sound of “hmmmmmmm” three times. Also, you gently tap your heart center several times on each exhalation.
Inhale slowly and fully and exhale to the sound of “hmmmmmm, hmmmmmm, hmmmmmm,” as you tap your chest three or more times. Repeat the cycle 33 times. As you progress, you may experience a buzzing sensation in your head, chest or body. Do not be frightened. This is very good. the energy is beginning to be quickened and to flow. Take your time during the 33 repetitions. When you have finished, sit quietly and envision the Beloved coming to you through the call of this practice. Invite the Beloved now to sit before you in the available empty seat/space.
Your heart is now open, and you can with ease send love from your heart into the heart of the Beloved. In the same moment, you can visualize the Beloved sending his or her love into your heart. Be very still during this part and you will feel the sweetness of divine, holy love.
This may take several practices , until you fully realize the bliss available to each of us. Once you do, falling in love will never again be the direction you travel when you experience love. For now you know the mystery of the heart, and the only way to go is up.
The Lover
Monday, July 21st, 2008My eyes are dry
My heart is crying
Is it opening and expanding?
Grieving, feeling the loss.
What is this loss?
Or is just the name I give
To this feeling
Of opening
There is a bittersweet-ness
To living this path of the naked heart
Of un-numbing
And experiencing life directly
Experiencing myself directly
Experiencing others directly
I am a range of emotions
An embodiment of contradictions
A beautiful woman
Emerging and learning to walk
The way of the naked heart
This morning a sadness on my heart
Instead of pushing onward
Shouting my commands
Run, do yoga, be productive, get going.
I stop and breath and listen
What do you need precious one?
What is this that is wanting my attention
My intention
The Soul speaks through our emotions
Especially the ones we’d rather not feel
What do you have to say this morning?
I am tired
I need to rest
Restore, rejuvenate
Be still and silent
Let the phone ring
Let the emails arrive
Just be still and know I AM
I am thinking I want him
To come to me
To love and hold me
I project outwardly
What is available to me
From my own self
Waiting for some knight
In shining armor
To arrive
No waiting Anakha
Love yourself
Hold yourself
Nourish yourself
Breath and take the time
To be with your own
Sweetness
Adore yourself
And in time
He will come
Whispering hello
The Friend is always here
Whispering love songs
To your heart
Be still, Dear one
And know I am God.
I exhale and feel a smile creep onto my face
I will care for my own self
Today
Love the one that has been
Here all along
Staring at me from inside
Beholding me in love
I am the Lover
I have been looking for
I relax
Tension in my shoulder releases
No more holding
Slowly opening to this Love
That I am.
Vulnerable
Saturday, July 19th, 2008Hollow bone
Naked heart
Breathless
I whisper,
I pray,
God help me to have
The courage
To stay open and revealed
In this Love
Vulnerable
Pliable
Feeling everything
Gratitude
Love
Devotion
Tenderness
I am a petal
On Love’s flower
Some days I wonder
If I can do this
Love this much
Feel this much
Surrender this much
My heart no longer
My own
Donated and devoted
to Love
I feel the urge
To stop
To shut down
To numb
I breath
I pray
I reach out
I remember
To receive this love
To be nourished and sustained by this love
To relax into the arms of God
Who holds me
Who lives within me
Wrap me in Love’s embrace
Let me hunger for nothing other than you
Let me turn to you when I tremble
When my naked heart needs to hear
Tender, soothing words
Reminding me
That a calling has been placed within my heart
My heart living within the one heart now
Susceptible to all
I have never been this available
This open
This vulnerable
To love
To others
To my soul
My prayer
To surrender beyond surrender
To love beyond love
To set myself, my life and my living
On the altar of love
Search me God
Search me God
Bring me into your radiant heart
I am one
I belong
I am here now
Belonging to everyone
Nothing separate
Nothing rejected or preferred
All is welcome here,
In the city of Love.
15 Years Ago…
Wednesday, July 16th, 2008Fifteen years ago I was gathered with friends and family at McMenamins Cornelius Pass Roadhouse for my rehearsal dinner. There were 25 or 30 of us gathered. I was getting married the next day to my college sweetheart, Christopher Voigt, at Montinore Vineyards. It is hard to believe that so many years have gone by.
Tonight as I write this blog, I am aware that I am just now finally ready for love…to give and receive love, to create a crucible for love, to love beyond constriction, addiction, projection. I have a vision of sacred, intimate relationship that I now have the capacity to fully manifest with the support of my partner and God (my partner who is God).
I am entering the waters of enchanted love. I am ready and I am available. I am grateful for the preparation and the purification that have delivered me to this moment. And I am grateful for my Beloved’s as well. God is working and weaving the miracle of love between us.
Yes, the “he” is a mystery. Yet I can see him, sense him, feel him.
I have a simple vision for my life that I am ready to receive…that I am receiving and living. I intend to create a home of peace and beauty…a sanctuary for my soul and his, a place to love, heal, celebrate and create. I intend to speak and teach and write about the journey into love — embodied, unconditioned, sustained love. I intend to write mystical erotic poetry and books that help us heal the split between the spiritual and the sexual…and thus between the genders, the nations, the religions. I intend to be published. I intend to express my wildness, my unbridled creative love through movement, singing, dancing, painting, cooking, love making, celebrating, communing, worshipping. I intend to catalyze and support the formation of Beloved Communities around the world…alchemical, intimate communities gathering to love one another and free one another from the darkness of constriction.
This dream is coming true. I had the pony dream. I had the prince charming dream. Now…the enduring love dream. Three wishes granted from the Genie…yes, all came true.
I am grateful tonight for so many things. Grateful for my family and friends, for my healing, for Jesus, Christ Yeshua and his constant love and guidance, for my learning and education, for the financial support that flows to me, for the women at CCCF for all they have taught me and continue to teach me. I have so much to be grateful for and I am so blessed. Thank you, thank you, thank you…for the blessings of my past, for the blessings of my present and for those blessings rushing forth to meet my soul’s deepest desire, my integral need.
Thank you God for your abundant presence in my life…within and without.
You are my true Beloved…now and forever, Amen.
Return Again
Wednesday, July 16th, 2008Having wet me with love,
why did you leave?
You abandoned your unwavering consort,
having ignited her lamp wick;
she’s like a pleasure boat
set out to drift on an ocean of craving.
Either way, I am dead ~
unless you return.
I was struck tonight by Felix’ sharing…grieving past lovers…grieving the ways we leave and don’t complete. As I wait for sleep to come, my heartmind drifts…the bittersweet wandering through moments past, slipping through my heart, weaving a tapestry of lifelines, connecting souls in timeless intersections.
Quietly I make a prayer to restore wholeness to all my relations. Summoning the uninterruptible movement of love, the river of gratitude…to flow to me, to all of my Beloveds past, present and future. May I learn to love, may I become a clearer reflection of the beauty of all of Divinity’s children. May we all walk in the land of Namaste.
When two people come together, an ancient circle closes between them. . . . When you really love someone, you shine the light of your soul on the beloved.
Thank you Beloveds for shining the light on my soul.
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Return Again ~ Rapheal Simcha
Return again, Return again,
Return to the home of your soul.
Return to who you are
Return to when you are
Return to where you are
Born and reborn again.
Return again, Return again,
Return to the home of your soul.
Your Song
Tuesday, July 15th, 2008You and I, a vessel formed.
God the waters beneath us.
Delivery…Salvation…Innocence…Wholeness.
I remember the Sacred Trinity of Union
You, Beloved
Me, Beloved
God, Beloved
And now my heart longs for you,
All the while enjoying this time
Of knowing, of learning
A new way of Love
Loving across the distances
Seeing through the veils
Yours and mine
For now, I sail this vessel
Into my own soul
Parted only by Love’s journey
Feasting on the mystery
Of this divine ordination
And yes, my Love
My soul remembers
Will always remember
You
Your song lingers
Playing on and on
A sacred text
In the inner ear
of my heart.
I remember you.