The Essential Love Infusion ~ Forest Park, Portland, OR
Be thirsty heart, seek forever without a rest. Let this soundless longing hidden deep inside you be the source of every word you say. ~ Rumi ~
What is this soundless longing that drives my desire for intimacy, for soulful connection? What memory of God is stirred when I feel the rain drops on my face and smell the freshness, the dampness of the forest? It is the memory of I AM.
I am this moment. I am this freshness. I am this greening. I am this blossoming. I am this wetness. I am this springtime bursting open with the Scent of the Sacred. I am this, we are.
Stillness enters me, life awakens my body from the inside. I breath in, I breath out. And I know, simply, truly that all I’ve ever wanted, all I’ve ever longed for was this deep and true experience of Omniversial Love.
I am grateful for the abundance of Love in my life. I am grateful for the web of connections, the heartstrings that play the invisible melody of forever. I am in you, you are in me. Together we are the I AM.
Robin’s Egg and Pink Flower (Unknown) ~Forest Park, Portland, OR~
Right from the start, situate yourself outside of spiritual progression, Outside of contemplation, Outside of seeking, Outside of skillful speech, Outside of meditation on the divinities, Outside of concentration and recitation on the texts. What is, tell me, the absolute reality That leaves no room for any doubt whatsoever? Listen carefully! Stop becoming attached to this or that, And, dwelling in your own true absolute nature, Take pleasure peacefully in the reality of the world. ~Spandakarika, Song of the Sacred Tremor~
This is the 5th day of my raw juice feast and I am feeling the sacred tremoring in my body and in my life. My sense are becoming heightened — smells, sounds, sights are especially stimulating and sometimes unnerving. This is a rarefied, clarified and refined state of being. What is my intention for the feast? To connect more directly, purely and honestly with my own nature, my essence and my rhythmic self. Who am I really in an undiluted and unpolluted state?
I wonder why I venture from this way of living, this state of being? I wonder why I entertain the numbed fear state in my body and in my life? Why do I want to avoid the embodied life at times? Why do I veer from the ways of being that are the fulfillment of my deepest desire? I believe that, up until now, I have had a limited capacity/ability/willingness (all of the above) to feel and fully experience desire, ecstasy, intimacy, presence and to allow myself to be sustained in this state. Do I deserve it? Can I afford it? Is this real? Am I avoiding? Will I pay for this bliss later? Today, all of these questions dissolved and I let myself be fully present each moment. One moment beautifully cascading into the next with the grace of my own breath. No striving, no seeking, no resisting…allowing, trusting, opening, enjoying the connection with my own nature. In this place I am embodied, in this place I know the sweet taste of oneness, of belonging, of true love.
Today, I let myself be. Experienced Being. Dissolved into Presence.
I took a walk in Forest Park (http://tinyurl.com/27mfbp) this afternoon. Eight days ago I placed water in mason jars at the base of several cloisters (I prefer to think of them that way) of Trillium — both white and pink. The essence of the Trillium is “true love” — it is referred to as the “herb of true love.” I am making a flower essence that I will bottle and offer to people that are wanting the support of nature and the planet in walking this path of embodied love. Today I checked on the jars, repositioned some and added a new one. When I picked up one of the jars (which three of my teenage girlfriends placed for me) I was amazed at the tremoring vibration of love…clear, powerful, vibrating, singing love that was emanating from the jar. Joyful love, ecstatic love, enduring love. I am thrilled about this project and am grateful for the Divine guidance that introduced me to this idea. (If you are interested in the Essential Love infusion, send me an email.)
Logging off now. Must go finish my apple, beet, carrot, spirulina concoction. I will be sharing more about the Spandakarika — the sacred tremoring — and my ongoing practice of presence and embodiment. Until then, my sage advice (giggle) — is LET GO, LET BE, BE FREE!
Amen. And yes, I do confirm this with the entirety of my being!
Anakha Coman leads us through the realities of fusing the mystical and erotic within ourselves…in actually becoming Love. From a deep inner prompting and an inspired conversation with Andrew Harvey (http://www.andrewharvey.net), her spiritual director, she began a new, committed path of awakening the Sacred Heart and fully embodying Love’s Presence. She now shares what she is learning and experiencing on that journey into embodied love. One of the aspects of the awakening process she addresses in this video blog is the disorientation that is an inevitable part of personal transfiguration.
There are five key aspects of this transfiguration, that come out of fusing the mystical and erotic energies:
1) The Christed Heart, the birth of a new heart, a Sacred Heart…a devoted, donated heart capable of unconditioned and unconditional love.
2) The Sacramental Perception, with a renewed vision we are able to perceive all that is as Sacred, all duality and polarization melts into the Oneness of Love.
3) The Illumined Mind, The Transformed mind arises out of losing our limited mind, and receiving an inspired, creative, systemic mind rather than a fear-based, constricted thought system.
4) The Awakened Body, A body that is alive, infused and cellularly activated with the Presence of God. In the Judeo-Christian tradition, it is called “the resurrection body ” and “the glorified body.” The prophet Isaiah said, “The dead shall live, their bodies shall rise” (Isa. 26:19). St. Paul called it “the celestial body” or “spiritual body ” (soma pneumatikon) (I Corinthians 15:40).In Sufism it is called “the most sacred body ” (wujud al-aqdas) and “supracelestial body ” (jism asli haqiqi).In Taoism, it is called “the diamond body,” and those who have attained it are called “the immortals” and “the cloudwalkers.”In Tibetan Buddhism it is called “the light body.”In Tantrism and some schools of yoga, it is called “the vajra body,” “the adamantine body,” and “the divine body.”In Kriya yoga it is called “the body of bliss.”In Vedanta it is called “the superconductive body.”In Gnosticism and Neoplatonism, it is called “the radiant body.”In the alchemical tradition, the Emerald Tablet calls it “the Glory of the Whole Universe” and “the golden body.” The alchemist Paracelsus called it “the astral body.”In the Hermetic Corpus, it is called “the immortal body ” (soma athanaton).In some mystery schools, it is called “the solar body.”In Rosicrucianism, it is called “the diamond body of the temple of God.”In ancient Egypt it was called “the luminous body or being” (akh).In Old Persia it was called “the indwelling divine potential” (fravashi or fravarti).In the Mithraic liturgy it was called “the perfect body ” (soma teilion).In the philosophy of Sri Aurobindo, it is called “the divine body,” composed of supramental substance.In the philosophy of Teilhard de Chardin, it is called “the ultrahuman.”
5) The Liberated Soul, unbound by past limitations, we are free to move with boundless creativity, wisdom, love and joy. We fully realize the Kingdom of Heaven in our own indwelling temple and at the core of our lives.
As we awaken as Love, we begin experiencing a new freedom… a new freedom of spirit… a new freedom of movement… a new freedom of creativity a new freedom of joy
Believe yourself a Whole… These needs, these desires, these faculties — This of eating and drinking, the great pleasure of food, the need of sex converse and of renewal in and from the bodies of others; The faculty of sight, the wonderful panorama of the visible, and of hearing; The inquisitive roaming brain, the love of society and good fellowship; The joy of contest, the yearnings of Religion, the mystic impulses of night, of nature, of solitude; All these and a thousand other impulses, capacities, determinations, are indeed Yourself — the output and evidence and delineation of Yourself. They cannot (in any permanent sense) be peeled off and thrown away; They spring inevitably deep down out of yourself — and will recur again wherever you are. There is no creature in the whole range of Being from the highest to the lowest which does not exhibit these and similar capacities, or the germs of them, in itself. You are that Whole which Nature also is — and yet you are that whole in your own peculiar way.
Believe yourself a whole…allow everything…every aspect…embrace yourself in totatlity….perceive yourself from essence…look upon yourself…the world, with sacramental perception. Everything is holy…adore yourself…adore the world. Believe yourself a whole. Amen.
Chapelita ~ IxtlahuacandelosMembrillos ~ Abril 8th
This is a picture of the chapelita that is near Delayne’s home here in Mexico. On the morning of my 40th birthday we woke early and made the steep vertical trek to the top of the hill to spend time at the chapelita, to pray and light candles. When I reached the top I stretched out my arms vertically, then horizontally and made this prayer…”may I be expanded in my connection to the Divine and deeply rooted in the Earth…may I be a vessel of love, connecting Heaven and Earth, may I share the abundance of love and gifts that reside in my naked heart.”
Today as I prepare to leave, I am feeling a peace beyond understanding, a deep connection to the earth and a calm readiness, a supple openness in my body and in my heart. I am grateful for this passage and I am ready to take my place on the holy ground of my own being and offer the inner pearl that resides in my heart as manna for my brothers and my sisters. I am grateful for the 40 years I have spent resurrecting my soul into wholeness and the completion that this time represents. Now, I turn ever so slowly, facing into the promised land that is my life, ready to live the years of milk and honey. The promise has been kept.
Thank you to all of you who are reading my words, I appreciate your presence and the connection that we share that is beyond words. I will soon be sharing 40 Practices for Embodying the I AM Presence…inspiration that found its way to me during this past week in Mexico. These are practices to powerfully apply the teachings that were presented in The Moses Code and they will also support the fusion and the embodiment of the mystical and the erotic in a way that blesses, heals, transforms and expands our being, our lives and our service to love.
I love you all and am deeply rooted in the knowing that we are truly amazing adorations and expressions of the One Power and the One Presence. And I am so grateful. Ameyn.
P.S. Angela/Angie: I received a message from you this week and somehow lost it while trying to save it. I would really like to hear from you again and would like to connect with you around your own awakening and emergence. Please email me again if you are reading this!
“The unending sacred tremoring of consciousness in the body is the supreme state!” ~ Lalla, 14th century poet and Kashmiri master ~
I am feeling full of love and gratitude…I am being encouraged as messages are coming in from all over the world…people feeling deep, core resonance with the path of waking up the sacred temple of the body and discovering the Heart of the Divine. This is the mystical erotic awakening, this is the Sacred Embodiment. I am that, I AM! Amen.
I believe as a collective we have a deep and profound hunger to experience the I AM, the Divine Presence in our own bodies and at the center of our lives and our relationships. Many times we fear the intimacy, the chaos and the wildness that we find in the embodied life, we often seek a spirituality that is transcendent and disconnected from the real experiences of our day to day lives. My own knowing and deep personal desire are taking me into the heart of what often times are held separate…that of God, Sex and Love. And, in this process of embodying God, of waking up this consciousness in my own body I am blessed to be experiencing the beauty and the magnitude of life force and love force waking up…I call this the mystical erotic awakening. This powerful energy, which Barbara Marx Hubbard refers to as “suprasexual” is the most potent, profound and powerful creative force we can access and harness…individually and collectively. This is the alchemy and the fire of embodied love.
Pierre Tielhard de Chardin wrote, “Fuse the powers of the sacred heart with the energies of the awakened body and you can transform everything.” The birth of a new divine humanity that is trying to take place in the depths of our contemporary crisis depends upon a radical union of all the opposites that have traditionally been kept separate: a radical union of transcendence and immanence, heaven and earth, mind and heart, body and soul, spirituality and sexuality, mystical awareness and radical action. Essential to this fusion of opposites is a living experience of the divine nature of the body and the calm and glorious energies that this awareness can release.
This video blog is a continuation of my exploration into the practice of the Presence and my own personal journey into the embodiment of Love.
The Essential Love Infusion ~ Forest Park, Portland, OR
